Identity Crisis

This post will be a quickie.  I have a busy evening planned.

So have you noticed this blog has an identity crisis?  Yeah, I thought so.  Can't make apologies for that, since I sort of titled the blog to make up for that!  But today I had my regular therapy, then got some GOOD news for a change.  A medical bill we were terrified to pay was reduced to where we pay $0!!!  Yep, they changed the bill to reflect a zero balance after the insurance paid it's portion!!!  Woohoo!  Needed some good news, really.

I was in a funk anyway, due to the depression, and really didn't feel like being social.  Now the plans I have for the evening don't seem quite as annoying.  I will frequently make plans, then later feel stuck into them, even if it's something fun.  It's hard when depressed to make yourself get out of the house, even when you know it will do you some good.  There is a serious lack of interest in normal activities going on in my head.  Now it's off to t-ball practice for my son, then I have to run off for an investigation this evening.

In my spare time, once in a while, I am a paranormal investigator.  It's something I've been interested in since I was a child, and I'll blog about that when I have more time.  But as much as I feel sleepy already, and as much as I really don't feel like driving so far, I committed myself to the team, and they need me.  When I signed up, it sounded like fun, but then the depression kicks in and sabotages my life.  I would probably never do anything, ever, if I let my brain have it's way.  I would cancel every plan I ever made and stay home and get fat.  Once I am on the way, I know I'll get more excited about it.  I usually find myself a bit wired if it's a good location, excited to see what might happen and what I might find.  I am the most skeptical believer you'll ever meet, but when I find something irrefutable, it's a fantastic feeling. 

So I guess I need to go.  Time to get stuff done.  And who am I?  You might be asking yourself.  I have no idea.  I'm a little of a lot.  Keep reading and find out more, if you feel like you can take the mosaic quality of my life!  :)